Part 3
by : Hesti Noviyanti
After school, he was following me. During walking, we hadn’t even a conversation until we’re arriving in the edge of the river. I know the situation. So, I started to talk.
“Yesterday… please forgive me.” He was giving attention to the grass and turning his head on me. “Immediately, I went home first and left you.”
“Ah…” His cheeks were getting red, “That time, umm.., I didn’t mean it. I, only…”
“Yea?”
“Actually…” I cut his saying.
“My Mom said, she’ll marry again. Then, about it, I think I can’t happy as her.” I was putting my head down. So I didn’t how’s his expression, “Because, I don’t really know about that guy.” Oh God, what was I saying? Why I told it to him? But Hendri, if the one hear it, he will…
Hendriatmo was only saying nothing and staying in his place without even a little move.
“Hendri?” I tried to catch the situation.
“That guy…” Now, he was putting his head down, “Is my dad.”
I was surprised.
“Before I came here, I had been knowing about the plan of their marriage. I also heard about you, Kristy. And I want to know you closer. I want to make them don’t worry about us because we are not feel what their think. And then…”
I slapped his left cheek.
“Then… THAT IS WHY YOU ALWAYS TREATING ME GOOD?! THAT IS WHY YOU TRYING TO BE TOO FRIENDLY TO ME?! AT FIRST, IT IS ALL YOU’VE BEEN PLANNED TO MAKE ME FEEL SO FRIENDLY BY YOU, ISN’T IT???!!!” My tears didn’t be held anymore, “YOU, YOU ONLY SILENT SEEING ME… WITHOUT GIVING ME KNOW ANYTHING?!” Tears were pouring down.
Yeah, Mom also asked. It was impossible if he will be on same school with me. But because she knew, she was testing me.
“No. No… I didn’t mean it.” He tried to explain but I didn’t want to hear a thing.
“YOU’RE A LIER!!!”
“I, I ain’t lie. I just wanna know how you look like. So I keep it by myself for giving you a surprise.”
“YOU THINK I’LL BE GLAD WITH YOUR SURPRISE TO ME?! NO ONE THINKS ABOUT MY FEELING EVEN A LITTLE!!”
“It… IT IS NOT TRUE!!” He grabbed his hand so hard while screaming, “IT IS BECAUSE ME, WHO CAN’T TELL IT TO YOU!! AND THEN, THE MORE I’M GETTING CLOSER TO YOU, THE MORE I CAN’T TELL YOU THE TRUTH!!”
I’ll be a elder brother- younger sister with Hendriatmo, won’t I?! Somebody please tell me it is not true!!
“BECAUSE… Because… I always thinking about you, Kristy!!”
What?! Pardon me?!
“Go home! Don’t ever follow me, anymore!” I said it with crying.
He stood still. Then for a few minutes later, he turned his head opposite of me, and leaving me alone.
I’m so sorry. When I’m with you, it is only happiness and happiness. Although we can’t talk with relax, always nervous and stutter, but he’s always waiting for me. And, little by little, that feel appears… If in the end will be end before it being started, I don’t need this feeling!
It was bad evening. I came home with no spirit.
“Hello, deary. How’s your day in class? Thanks God you’re not being rained again.” Mom welcomed me with her great smile.
I passed her and was keeping straight to the bedroom. Leaving, and saying nothing to her.
“I washed your uniform. If you want to change your wearing, I put in on…”
“BAM!!” I closed my door consciously.
She stared me with a weird stare.
“Hendri, today is your duty and me to clean our class.” Agan gave him a broom to clean the class after school.
“K.” Hendri reached that broom.
He passed me to get his bag to go home. I bet he realized that I saw him, but she stood still.“Sky so cloudy. I hope it won’t rain so we can play football in the yard. You must join us, Hen!!” Agan was saying while brooming the class, but Hendri gave no attention to him. He was thinking about something. Unusual he looked so silence today.
In the edge of the river, I was sitting on comfey grass. I opened the diary that Hendri gave to me. Hmm… unconsciously, I wrote too many on it. There were still enough spaces for I write again. What? Again?! Umm… should I remove it? Oh Dad, can u give a solution to me?
“Icy, Icy… Come here, sweety.” Dad called me and I turned my head on him, “Look! It is stopping.” He reached little insect which was flying on the grass on the edge of the river. “Give me your hand, sweety.” Dad put that insect on my finger.
“Don’t do something sudden, honey.” Mom was trying to keep it on my own.
I was smiling and feeling itchy because of the legs of that insect., “What is it, Dad?”
“It’s a dragonfly, sweety.” Dad talked to close to me, so that insect was flying away.
“Aaaah..” we’re all regretting it was gone but with smiling.
Why we can’t always together? Why Mom is just like what she was? Why friend can’t always be friend? Dad… Answer my question!! Dad!!! I need your suggestion!! Why don’t you just here to help me??! How dare you are!!
I tried to torn the diary I was holding on.
“Want to torn it?” Suddenly I heard a voice behind me, a known voice.
“It looks like a diary that I gave to you.” Hendri came to me with his smiling that I really love with it.
I was keeping on to torn it.
“KRISTY!!” He was trying to stop me.
“No!! Let me torn this!” I said randomly and started to cry.
“Kristy.”
“Just leave me alone!! I don’t need anybody for now!!”
“Please Kristy, give me a chance to explain to you.”
“I’ve been explained! And now we’ll be an elder brother-young sister, won’t we?”
“KRISTY!!”
“Because our parents…” I stopped his saying, and crying loudly, “Hoaaaaaaaaa!!” I put my body on his breast and crying.
I know. I really know. He didn’t mean… to hurt me.
He hug me warmly.
“My mom died because of sick when I was child.” We were sitting on the grass.
Now I was feeling more calm.
He continued, “I didn’t really understand, because she was disappear suddenly. Every time I cry, Dad always say, ‘C’mon, keep spirit!!’ And I always think why is he fine by the time Mom was disappear? But then, about five years later, I saw him crying with whispering my Mom’s name.” He was pushing and pulling his breath, “I bet he always feels sad. I’m not worry again after that. Because illustration of Mom never go away from his mind, I when I heard he wants to marry again, I wish he’ll be happy.”
“it is…” I erased a tear on my cheeks, “So different with mine. My Mom separated with Dad because she hates Dad much. I only remember the things that happened in this edge of the river when I was still with Dad. But not too long, it all will be lost. Everything will be forgotten.”
“Everything? It is impossible.” He looked at me with his nice smiling, “It will be remembered again. Until how many times it can’t be counted.”
I was feeling something that couldn’t be pour it on words.
When the dragonflies are flying…
When we’re walking on this edge of the river…
When the grass is moving by the wind…
Will this feeling never remove?
“Me too… Never forget this edge of the river.” He smiled at the river.
I turned my head on him.
He continued, “Every time walks behind you, I always feel confuse. Where I should take first, as elder brother-younger sister, or … I always want to say it, but… I don’t know how…” He stopped for awhile, “Love. Love that isn’t as brother-sister, but love that know you as a girl. I love you, Kristy.”
I shocked.
“Aa… yeah I know we’ll be elder-younger brother but … maybe someday we can…”
I was shocking more.
He put his hand on his mouth, “Oops. Sorry, I don’t mean it. I mean…”
I put a little smile on my lips and turn my head on him, “Is it ‘always’?” My cheeks were getting red, “Always together, ever after? Just like when we’re walking here?”
He grabbed my hand, “I promise.” He gave his greatest smile to me.
For this moment that I think great, maybe I will write it not on my diary. Let me write in on saying.
“I love you too, Hendri.” I was whispering on his ears. I saw, his cheeks were getting red too.
A secret promise that was made on the unforgettable place, believe, that it will be eternal.
___The End___
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